Toby's New Life Ch. 1

“Toby… Toooby, can you hear me Toby?”

I wake with a start, “the same damn dream again.” “It’s always the same first I’m shown images of childish things and next the same voice.  Sometimes it’s a daycare center sometimes it’s a nursery, but it is always babyish.” Toby didn’t mind the baby part as he was in secret an abdl.  It was the voice that worried him; it was his mother’s but not her present voice. It was the voice she used when he was little; He kept asking himself “why now, why would I be hearing her voice after…” He couldn’t finish the sentence, you see his mother passed away recently and he felt lost, none of his friends could comfort him as they were all back in his home town. Toby moved away when he was 17 deciding that he was independent and didn’t need his mom to take care of him. The Truth was he did but he didn’t want to admit it, he wanted to suppress his feeling of longing to be cared for as a baby. He started to act childishly when he was about 14 realising that more than anything he wanted to be a baby again, to be cared for and truly loved.

As Toby get’s out of bed his tail brushes something wet, he looks down and realises his diaper leaked. “Well looks like it’s time for a change” He grabs some supplies out of his closet and enters the bathroom to change. He untapes and slides out of the wet diaper and quickly tosses it aside and grabs a new one. He had grown incontinent due to an injury when he was 12. As he finishes he grabs a pair of worn black jeans and a purple shirt tosses them on, grabs his jacket and heads out to his car. As he drives he looks down at his watch “crap I’m late again, my boss is gonna kill me.” As he reaches the mall he finds a spot to park and makes his way in. His boss is waiting for him “Late again Toby? What’s the reason this time?”

Toby grumbles as he replies “I just woke up late, I’m sorry it won’t happen again.” His boss sighs “don’t make promises you can’t keep Toby.” Toby quickly runs to the back room and starts working, his job is stock manager. Usually there’s no one back there unless there’s and new shipment, and today it was the same.

After hours of working he finally decides to get something to eat, as he walks to the food court he sees a sign for a new store “edit later” he didn’t know why such a place would intrigue him, and yet it did. He finally reaches the food court and decides on subway for lunch. He orders his usual pizza sub and starts the walk back to his work. As he walks past where the new store was, he couldn’t help but stare at it. What was it about that place that pulled him to it? “Crap I’m late … again” he exclaims as he looks at his watch,  he starts sprinting back to his store and runs to the back blushing heavily as he passes his boss. He finishes his sandwich and starts finishing the forms for the day. As the clock strikes 5 Toby get’s up and grabs his stuff, when his boss comes in and asks “can I talk to you before you leave please?” Toby grumbles as he figures what’s about to happen. Toby enters his boss’s office and states “Before you start, I know what you’re going to say.” And what would that be Mr. Michaels?” his boss replies in a calm voice. “Your firing me aren’t you?” His boss simply shakes her head “No, we’re just giving you a break. We can tell you’ve been stressed as of late, and we understand your mother passed away and you might still be mourning her.” Toby couldn’t believe what he was hearing, Karen... His boss understanding what was wrong? It was unheard of, for all he knew she was a soulless bitch who didn’t care about anyone but herself. “I’m not fired?” The words came out a bit quivered because of how shocked he was. “No, you’re on I suppose a vacation. However I expect you back in 2 weeks time and at full work capacity.” Toby nodded and rushed to his car. “What the hell was that about?” Toby decided to celebrate a bit at the bar. At the bar he met some interesting people, most of them drunk out of their minds but some of them we’re quite fun to hang out with. After a few hours of chatting Toby decides to grab a cab and head home. On the ride he felt extremely sleepy which was odd because he usually was up past 3 in the morning and it was only 7:30. When he finally got home he went straight up stairs and flopped down on his bed. Within minutes he was out cold. This time his dream opened up differently, rather than being shown images of the places he was actually in the places but he was much smaller. He looked at himself in a mirror, he couldn’t be more than 2 his little paws were chubby and his outfit was different. Instead of jeans he wore black overalls over a purple and red striped shirt; he had a pacifier in his mouth preventing him from talking. “This is insane, am I in control this time or is it just an expansion of my old dreams?” Toby waddled around a little exploring until he saw a familiar face. It was Karen his boss, but what was she doing in his dream? Did he fancy her or was there something else to it? She looked directly at him and said something inaudible. BEEP BEEP BEEP. Toby woke up in cold sweat, “what the hell was that?” Toby got up and went to change his diaper when he noticed something. His clothes hung on him loosely and he looked younger. “What the hell?” Toby yelled at his reflection scared of what was happening. He examined his reflection; he couldn’t be more than 15. He had no body hair besides his head hair, he looked about 5”3’ rather than his usual 6”1’. Then he heard a crash from downstairs, he quickly grabbed his baseball bat he got from his aunt 4 years ago and quietly walked downstairs.

“Well hey there sleepy head, thought you were gonna sleeping all day.” Toby looked at the woman in his kitchen terrified, it was his boss cooking bacon and eggs… IN HIS KITCHEN. “Karen what the fuck are you doing here?” Toby demanded, Karen gave him a look of disappointment “Toby what did I tell you about calling me Karen, I’m your mother and expect to be treated as such.” Toby looked shocked at what she just said. “You are not my mother, my mother died 2 weeks ago; now get the hell out of my house Karen.”   Karen looked absolutely furious “What the hell did you just say to me young man?” Toby just looked frightened “Now go get changed and get ready for school.” Toby whimpered a bit and obeyed his new “mother”. When he got to his room and was sure that she couldn’t hear him he screamed into his pillow “Who the hell does she think she is!?!?” He hears Karen’s voice from downstairs “What was that? If I hear anymore yelling you are grounded, do you hear me young man?” Toby now was now petrified and did as he was told. As soon as he finished getting dressed for school he headed downstairs to grab breakfast, after that he went straight out the door. When he walked out to the drive he panicked “Where the hell is my car?” Toby exclaimed. Suddenly the front door opens and Karen yells “What did you just say!?!?” She sounded fuming mad, and Toby thought it was best to leave it be. He starts walking and was amazed to see that he knew exactly where to go, he had no idea why he did he just knew. When he finally got to the school some random kids went up to him and were asking questions as if he were a good friend of theirs, he just listens and tries to figure a way out. “Do I know you?” He asks, the girl who looked a bit younger than him replied “of course ya do silly, don’t you remember your own girlfriend?” Toby is shocked surly he should remember his girlfriend… right? “Are you sure you have the right person?” Toby asks. “Only if you’re Toby Michael” She replies with a sly grin. Toby was afraid “Is this girl really my girlfriend?”  The girl sees the confused look on Toby’s face “You really don’t remember do you?” Toby shakes his head, ashamed that he can’t remember this girl. She has a hurt look on her face but then quickly goes back to her cheerful self, “Well I’ll try to help you remember” She says as she plant a kiss on Toby’s face. Toby is shocked by this and backs away.”I... I’m sorry I don’t remember you.” He replies sheepishly. “I’m sorry I thought that would help, I’ll leave you alone I guess.” The girl responds solemnly. Toby now sees a hurt look on the girls face and immediately tries to help her. “We can still be friends.” He offered, “But I don’t think I can handle a girlfriend right now.” Her face brightens up “Okay friends it is, allow me to introduce y self.” She states her name being Jackie Marie and her 2 friends were John Dennis and Barry Jordan, Toby re introduces himself and they all get along famously. The day ended quickly for Toby and he couldn’t wait to return the next day.